I can’t express how much I’ve fallen for you within the past year. Before we were dating, you were always the biggest highlight of my day, waiting for a text from you and finally receiving one. I remember when we had recently started texting each other, I avoided talking to you for about a week because I kept questioning whether being with you was a good idea or not based on the past distant relationships I’d been in. But I’m glad with my decision, I’m glad I chose to let you be in my life. It was probably one of the smartest decisions I feel like I’ve made. Because here we are, almost a year into our relationship. Sometimes I know I make it hard for you to stand me, and vice versa. But I have never loved you any less, nor have I ever second guessed us. This is my longest relationship, along with being my favorite. I’ve experienced just about everything with you, you met the family I’ve never even met before, and I tell you things that I don’t even tell my best friends. I’d love to say that if we were to ever split up I’d be okay without you, but I don’t think I would be. I honestly can’t imagine you not being apart of my life. You, or anyone else probably wouldn’t even begin to fathom how important you are to me. I love you, maybe too much, and sometimes that scares me.. But I don’t really mind. Hm.”
jenna lyndsay cagatao. My mind is filled with rants, vents, and everything else that's stored in there. i over - think a lot. I try and express all my thoughts that I keep bottled up. I'm getting away from everything. I'm escaping reality. △
I can never stay mad at anyone. No matter how much I want to, no matter what the reason is. It’s just not good enough to keep me upset. I guess the solution to my frustration is just some time to myself.
- I can’t imagine what you’re going through, losing your mom. It must be really hard. Seeing your mom like that. Her going through that. I don’t really know how to .. I don’t know. I just can’t believe she’s gone. Someone that close to you. It’s not like your uncle or your grandma, but your own mom. It hurts. It killed me when I heard my mom cry. It’d be 100x harder to see you like this. I’m just really sorry.
- It makes me think about how I treat my mom. I take her for granted all the time. I know I shouldn’t, but things are different with my mom. She’s always busy, she doesn’t really have time for me. For my brothers, for any of us. I’m not close like how Audrey’s, or Jacqueline’s mom are with them. After this, I know I should start treating her right. But it’s just .. I don’t know. Whatever.
- Why can’t you hear me out. I didn’t feel like seeing you today because I’m disappointed in you. You keep making the same mistake all the time, like you promised. I get pissed and angry at you, but then you call me or come to me right after feeling shitty and then I have to comfort you. I can’t be mad. But everytime it happens I just get more and more mad. I don’t mind you coming to me, but I’m just tired of it. I’m losing my patience. I just didn’t want to see you because I’m still kinda mad. I hate how you make the most stupidest careless decisions. I know you’re depressed and have the most shitty feeling in the world. But it doesn’t mean you shouldn’t care about what you’re doing. You’re letting these people do all kinds of shit to you. Do you know how this makes me feel. It’s like you don’t care. And saying that you don’t want to be here anymore, and you want to die, saying you don’t care about anyone. It makes me feel like shit. DO YOU NOT HOW THIS MAKES ME FEEL. It’s like you’re just gonna leave me. I’m trying my hardest, doing and trying to find something to make everything okay. I’m trying to make you stable again. But it’s like. Okay. All my hard work is gonna go to waste. Like. you’re being selfish. I don’t know. I’m sorry I didn’t go to your house. I just couldn’t face you. I didn’t think I could look at you without yelling at you for letting people take advantage of you like that. I’m sorry. I know you’re pissed, and I should be there for you, but I’m just a little tired right now of your actions.
- Yes, I use sleeping as an excuse, but most of the time I actually am sleeping. So stop being so fucking butthurt when I know you do the exact same fucking thing to me.
- I am fed up. With everything. I know I’m supposed to be the one to go to for everyone, and help everyone with their problems, but don’t you think I need a break. What about my problems. Lately I’ve been keeping hella shit in and venting and ranting a lot to Owen, because I don’t want to add up to everyone else’s problems. It’s not that it matters and it’s important anyways.
- I am just angry, sad, hurt, tired, and in the I don’t give a shit, fuck everything kind of mood.
Pictures of Channel Orange and the new pretentious fans’ love for Frank Ocean.. Loool.
I really hate two-faced people. People that explain they’re on both sides, no one’s side, or yours. But behind you’re back, they choose to talk bad about you to the other person and they do the same with you.
Abstinence. How about trying to be good friends with a guy instead of constantly falling for every one of them you meet. And then complaining about how you get hurt everytime and how you’re “done” with them.
You’re an annoyance, and your “love” for Michael Jordan is fake.
The Amazing Spider-Man is my new favorite movie. Why can’t there be more girls like Gwen Stacy.
Does anyone know when the Silver Creek libary is opened? I still need to pay for my book.
I wanna start watching Supernatural, but I’m lazy.
I wanna do some summer reading, I’m just searching for friend recommendations.
HP+LOK+batman = most enjoyable people in the world
Sucks knowing people with good plans every week and I’m just here with bad ones on the weekend. -_-
I want an old fashioned Canon camera.
A person admitting something they don’t want me to know is always the biggest part of my day.
That devious feeling when my happiness makes my envious people angry.
Oh how funny it is when high school starters like me do something that the upper classmen usually do and they talk about it and ask about it nonstop.
I’m probably gonna start liking the Lakers and Heat a little more now.
I see you pleading to people to follow you on Instagram and you don’t even choose to follow anyone back.
I hate thinking over scheduled plans because they’ll probably go wrong when the day is near.
I’m really fed up with the guys that used to be my friends at my school. Fuck you niggas, I really want nothing to do with you now. Be glad.
That was a huge downgrade. I can tell by his blog. Are you fucking blind. Are you delusional.
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Anonymous asked: oh.. then you should go ask her than to be curious?.. is she the only girl you trust with everything? and do you guys argue a lot? lol.. am i asking too many questions? it’s 2am and i’m kinda bored P:
We don’t argue. Whenever something is up, one or the other always says sorry before things get wrong. And no, it’s fine. I’m finally getting questions that aren’t about my sex life. lol.
Richard Ngo: (2:43 AM)
You’re hiding your anger from someone you say is your bestfriend, and that shit’s already making me mad. You know how I feel that. If you continue doing it with me, I’m going to question what I am to you. I hate it when you try to save all that bad shit from me whether its to protect me or not. And what YOU’RE suppose to do is be honest with every shitty mood you have on me and just give it up. I won’t have to do much shitty thinking then. So I’ll be fine.
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